Friday, August 30, 2013

cranky luna

Normally, I am not a cranky person. I have a really slow temper. I like to make excuses for other people's bad behavior and let it roll of my back. Normally, I can handle just about anything and anybody. Especially at work. I can handle the rude and the mean. I can even handle someone who threatens to come and beat me up over a pair of shoes.

But, today was not a normal day for me. One of the girls in our building did not show up for work today, so this had me doing double the work. This was a normal thing. People were a little snippy. This was a normal thing. There was no where to fit people in our schedule. This was a normal thing. The unnormal thing was me. I was cranky and irritable.
Don't Mess With Me Today!!

I was instantly cranky with any and every person. I don't think I smiled all day. Oh I did the fake, professional, I don't really mean it smiles. But as soon as the person turned away the smile was gone. I was short with people, didn't go out of my way to be helpful, and wished that everyone would just go away.

As the day went on it only got worse. I  got worse. I couldn't believe I was responding this way, I didn't know what was wrong. I don't like being cranky. Irrationally cranky. I don't like my emotions to control me. I like to be in control of how I respond to things and I was out of control (I may have some control issues).

By the time I got home I had a massive headache, I was mad at the world, and mad at myself for not being able to not be mad.

That's when it hit me like a brick wall. This was my "withdrawal symptoms". I had been so busy all day I didn't even notice. I didn't get my fix. I WENT A WHOLE DAY WITHOUT MY HAPPYCAPPI! I went a whole day without any caffeine!

I nearly passed out from the realization. How could I have not noticed? It's my HappyCappi! The source of my happiness! It even has the word HAPPY in the name! (I think I may have to reevaluate my caffeine addiction)

I thought about going and finding some caffeine to put into my system and get my fix to make me feel better, but I was too cranky to even bother. I just went to bed. Yes, that's right. I went to bed at 8:00 PM that's 6 hours earlier than normal. In my defense I have also been a little sleep deprived on top of being caffeine deprived (a 2-6 AM sleep schedule is not always effective). I hit my pillow and was out like a light. I slept for ten hours and it was wonderful!

A Crazy Kinda Happy
I have to admit the first thing I thought about when I woke up was coffee. I have it now and I am happy. That's all that really matters right?

Next on my lowercase to get your priorities straight: Coffee is not the source of all your happiness.


  1. This could have been taken out of my life...

  2. OMG I love the little pictures you made!! They made me laugh and be happy. :)

    Goodness though I feel like you might as well been talking as me! I get like that sometimes too! Once it was me being sad all the time. Like I cried about...everything!!! It was my birth control. To strong! Made my hormones go all crazy! I was so glad to be off of it.

    I like how you mentioned you got mad at yourself for being mad and not being able to get happy. I hate being mad!! But it's more me being mad at me for being mad.

  3. I'm glad you like the pictures! I found an old paint program on my computer and had a lot of fun messing around with it...probably too much fun. It brought back childhood memories where that was the coolest thing ever.

    I've done the whole sad thing before...people look at you weird when you cry for no reason.

    Glad to know there are people out there like me!

  4. We all need our days of crankiness. Isn't it funny how coffee can cure some things sometimes? =0)
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  5. I love reading posts about bad days. That's terrible, I know. But far more interesting than reading about other people's GREAT days when you've had your own bad day...

    1. That's not terrible! When you are having a bad day it makes it harder to see that somebody else is so happy and great when you are not! Real life is full of good days and bad days and sometimes both at the same time and that's what I want to write about.